Lost and Found
Berlin 25.12.2017
I guess we all have a special tendency to forget what we don't want to face. But there are some that are specialists in not facing their problems, me on the other hand like to find peace with my problems... they usually get worse once I try to fix stuff.
Back then when I went to school (7th Grade) the girl I had a crush on, told me: -when you loose something you have to let go, every time you try to reach for it it will only go further away.- I guess I haven't learnt a thing in the past 21 years. For some situations I am not able to just let go, and yes, I do make taings worse very often.
I guess I really have a deficint when it comes to emotional intelligence. I just can't undersand why some people can be so careless a crule to others, especially when it comes to women. The long period when the woman you like ignores you, that's just BS. Why do people have to play cool?
Is it that I am going to be struggling with the same questions an problems my entire life? is there any hint of how to be socially normal? is anything like "being normal"? I want to believe that we are all freaks, we all have to keep some thaughts to our selves if we want to play in society. It is a shame that our most deep and true feelings have be hidden away in order to be "normal".
When it's human kind going to accept its true destructive nature? are we going to be able to walk there without any social masks?